Well 2019 has not gone as I thought it would. In November of 2018 I was prepping for a bikepacking trip to Ecuador in January of 19 when I herniated a disc in my back.
The last east six months have been dedicated to finding more balance in my life, rehabbing my back, and finding my identity outside of cycling. When the thing you identify the most with is taken away, it really makes you step back and take stock of your life. The truth is I have so much to appreciate Nd am so much more than an athlete.
I am a leader, husband, and soon to be father! Over the winter I had had to learn that who I am is defined by the impact I have in those around me and not what I achieve physically. With my wife and I expecting our first child I have been focused on making sure she and our baby are healthy and cared for while ensuring my body is healthy so I can care for them. At work I have focused on how I impact those around me in a way that leaves all of us in a better space. I have reinvested in the practice of paying it forward and continuing to mentor future leaders.
My back is slowly healing and I am back out on the bike and in the gym. I am however reminding myself that this does not define me. It is a sport I owe much in my life to and an incredible outlet. It is a source of inspiration and passion, but it is not who I am.
This injury sucks and I’m not going to say I am glad it happened or some other inspiring crap. I will however say that I am proud that I was able to learn some valuable lessons about self worth.
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